SeptemberForgiveness

A Story of Forgiveness

I had gone thru many of the steps of forgiveness. And just still couldn’t let go. Just still couldn’t find closure to the matter.

I had always heard you must forgive or you won’t be forgiven. But it just didn’t resonate with me. It was just all too vague or something. It didn’t tug at my heart strings.

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I remember the day, it was the Sunday before my 30th birthday.  I took some quiet time after church. I heard God saying…

    • “Ok, Trudie, did this person do you wrong?”  Yes, for sure, is the answer.
    • “Did this person hurt you?” Yes.
    • “Did this person ruin your life?” Yep!
    • “Does this person OWE you?” Yes.

Yes, yes, and yes. This person certainly owed me. I had given up so much of my life for this person’s control and agenda. Things that should not have been asked of a young girl.

Yes, the resounding answer to all those questions was yes.

I pictured myself standing before my God as the judge. The person that had hurt me was on trial and was found guilty. The punishment was, well, anything really. I think I pictured money. Say $100,000.  This person owed it to me.  God as the judge was admitting that, yes, the person was guilty. And He was ready to hand out the sentence. 

But then Jesus walked in.

He said, “I will take the place. I will pay it all. I too, know that this was the guilty person. But I want to pay her punishment.” He handed me the money to pay the debt that was owed.

The choice was now mine. I needed to decide if I would accept the gift. Jesus was freely handing me everything the person owed me.

If I took the money, the person would be able to walk out of the courtroom free. I could not hold a grudge. I could not call another trial. If I accepted His payment, I had to let go of the right to get even.

Finally, I realized this was the way it was. Real life. Not a made-up courtroom scenario.

Jesus had paid it all on the cross. Years ago. For the sins against me. He had paid that person’s debt. He DIED on the cross so that that person would be free from the bondage they owed me.

He only asks me to accept his free gift of repayment.

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When Satan comes back and he wants me to hold on to that debt. Daily, when he brings memories back and words that were spoken.  Daily, when he wants me to pick that hurt back up. I have to go back to the court room. Jesus is still standing there with a receipt of payment. Signed and dated. March 1st, 2013.

Sometimes a new hurt comes; I find myself back in the courtroom. I know as soon as a sentence is made, Jesus will be walking in ready to pay the debt. He is always ready to pay all that this person owes.

He is able.

You know, I’ve missed out on a lot because of this debt owed to me. Yet, as time goes on, I’m realizing that not only is Jesus willing to pay the debt, but He also wants to fill the holes that were left. He wants to restore me completely.  He wants to make good the wrong done to me. He wants to change this story of hurt into a story of complete joy.

He is not just into paying the debt, but into restoring me completely. Refining me into pure gold, tried by fire through this.

He is Able. But I have to accept it.

I have to focus on the good that this situation has brought in my life. I have to focus on the things, people, and circumstances that this very situation has brought. I need to look at the place where I would have been, and the place where I am now. And in that, I find that Jesus was able. Jesus is still able to provide payment for what this person owes me.  In a FAR greater way than any person ever could. More than any punishment could have repaid, the debt is restored.

Jesus is able. Every day I have a question to answer. . . Will I let Him?

You have the same option this very day… Who are you standing on the other side of the wittness stand from?  Who do you need to forgive? Jesus is walking into the courtroom. Will you let Him pay what is owed to you? Will you accept His free gift? He can restore your debt! Will you let Him?

Forgiveness Is Freedom

Have you ever noticed that the words GIVE and GIVEN are in the middle of forgiveness? I guess I never really thought about it. Until today. And now, that which has been seen cannot be unseen.

ForGIVEness is a noun, and as such, it is a thing. It is something you can give, and it is something that can be given to you—whether you choose to receive it or not. Isn’t that interesting?

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Psychologists have long contended that the offer of forGIVEness benefits the person giving it regardless of the recipient’s reaction. Why? Rarely do the people we need to forgive have a clue how much harm they have inflicted or the extent of the pain they have caused. Can I get a witness?!

ForGIVEness is not about fighting for justice or holding the offender accountable—that’s completely different. ForGIVEness is an attitude of the heart. It’s about us and our willingness to trust God’s sovereignty: Do we trust God enough to forGIVE someone for hurting us? Our family? Our friends? Our pastor? Our animals? Our possessions? Our bank accounts?

When I consider what authentic forGIVEness looks like, I think of the incredibly inspiring and humble members of Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church in Charleston, South Carolina. I think of  Nadine Collier, the daughter of Ethel Lance, a senior citizen who was shot and killed after an evening service in 2015 for no other reason than the color of her skin. When Collier had the opportunity to confront her mother’s murderer, she did not seek revenge or curse his existence. She did not question why or scream in his face. Instead, she offered the unexpected and holy gift of forGIVEness. Though he was held captive by his hate, she was FREE.

When I consider what authentic forGIVEness looks like, I think of Debbie Godwin, daughter of Robert Godwin Sr. whose cold-blooded murder was posted on social media and shared all over the interwebs. Instead of hate and bitterness, she has shown tremendous grace and emotional fortitude by offering forGIVEness and showing empathy towards the murderer who later took his own life. He was held captive by his hate. She was FREE.

What do Collier, Godwin, and others who genuinely practice the art of forGIVEness have in common? They share a heart filled with humility and trust—the combination of which unlocks our ability to offer forGIVEness to those who have hurt us, even if the hurt can never be undone.

Isn’t it interesting that when Jesus taught His followers how to pray, He taught them to “Let it go!”

“Forgive us for the ways we have wronged you, just as we also forgive those who have wronged us. (Matthew 6:12, CSB)

And just in case Jesus’ followers didn’t understand that forGIVEness was tied to their willingness to forGIVE others, He re-stated it more clearly:

“If you forgive others their sins, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don’t forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your sins.” (Matthew 6:14, CSB)

In this model prayer, Jesus highlighted the essentials of an effective prayer: honoring God; calling out for His will to be done; looking to Him as provider; requesting protection and deliverance from evil; AND seeking forGIVEness with the same measure we offer it to others. It’s almost as though Jesus was teaching His followers that forGIVEness was an important daily practice—a spiritual discipline, of sorts—and withholding it would have serious negative consequences.

ForGIVEness requires neither a frontal lobotomy nor a risky reconciliation. It simply requires (1) a humble spirit convinced that the best judge of character, motivation, and intention is the Lord God Almighty and (2) a heightened sense of self-awareness that we are not Him! 😳

Only in humility are we able to place our trust in a God who is who He says He is and does what He says He will do. When we trust God, we can genuinely offer forGIVEness—not concern ourselves with the reaction of the recipient—and experience freedom from the bondage of bitterness.

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Are you willing to trust God’s judgment over your own and offer forGIVEness to ___________________ today, even though she or he might never know? Or might reject it? Remember, His forGIVEness is directly related to our willingness to forGIVE others. There really is no better time than the present to let go of bitterness and trust God’s sovereignty with your pain. ForGIVEness is freedom.

Mom Guilt, Forgiveness, and Rest

Mom guilt.

We all have it. Things we have done or shouldn’t have done with our kids. You all know what I’m talking about. Cold pizza for breakfast because I didn’t get enough sleep last night (teething baby) and I didn’t have the energy to make a fresh, nutritious breakfast.

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Or the time my child was the only one on the homeschool field trip who didn’t have his jacket (and his pants were inside out – how did that happen?). How about the time I forgot to get a card for my husband’s birthday and frantically instructed the kids to make a “Daddy card,” in a feeble attempt to convince him that THAT was my Plan A?

It seems we moms are always feeling guilty about something. Let me ask you right now. Is there something (big or little) nagging in the back of your head right now as you’re reading this? Can you think of something that happened recently or in the past that you keep replaying in your mind, wishing you could have done it differently?

Let me tell you. Having raised four children, homeschooling them from K-12 grades, I am constantly having to deal with those thoughts even today. Things I did in the past keep popping up in my brain, and I have to deal with the regret or frustration of trying to push those thoughts out of my mind.

In a sense, that crazy, over-sung movie theme is useful…Let. It. Go.

Self-forgiveness is a tough thing. Moms, in particular, often carry a heavy load of guilt. And sometimes it goes way beyond the guilt of serving cereal for dinner.

If you do a quick search in the Bible to find verses addressing “forgiving yourself,” you might not find any. That doesn’t mean it isn’t in there. There are lots of passages that talk about the sin of unbelief. Think about that. In Romans 8:1, Paul says that there is “therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”

He goes even further in 2 Corinthians 5:17:
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

So if you are a Christian, you have received the complete grace and forgiveness of Christ. When God looks at me, for example, He sees the finished work of Jesus covering over me, and thus He sees Jesus’ righteousness as if I have never sinned. So my sins are forgiven. I believe that.

Well, although that’s something that makes me want to sing and praise the Lord each day, and I am truly grateful for what Jesus did for me and God’s forgiveness of my sins, why do I keep beating myself up when I think back to things I didn’t do perfectly in my life? Why don’t I believe 2 Corinthians now?

In a sense, I am denying the work of Jesus. God forgives me, so why can’t I forgive myself? I mean, I DO forgive myself in my head, but my heart keeps bringing up the guilt and regret.

That is NOT forgiveness. That is rejecting what Christ has done!!

When you live in guilt, you have no internal rest. We can sometimes push that guilt away for a time, but like a horrible weed, it will keep coming back unless we can eradicate those roots.

And to do that, I have to turn to the power of God’s word. Paul says in Hebrews 4:3,
“For we who have believed enter that rest.”

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We need to understand the rest that comes with the forgiveness and salvation in Christ.

We find rest when we really accept that our sins have been washed away and are forgotten. If the God of all creation who upholds everything in His hand made it so you and I are able to have a relationship with Him – made it so we can come to him as one who is perfect (thanks to Jesus), then who am I to say otherwise?

Who am I to say I know better than God? I don’t have to dwell on those guilt-bubbles that keep rising to the surface. When they pop up in my mind, then, I just remind myself that God is big enough to deal with them. In fact, He already has dealt with them. So why do I keep fertilizing those weeds? He pulled them out, and I can joyfully go forward.

Moms, let Him do that for you. It doesn’t mean you will never feel guilt, but you DO have a means to address it. You have the awesome goodness of Christ’s work and His overwhelming love for you.

Embrace that.

Especially as you dress your toddler in yesterday’s clothes.

Why Do We Struggle With Forgiving

Do you find it easy to forgive others when they hurt you? How about forgiving others that hurt you over and over again even when you have told them that what they are doing bothers you?

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I struggle with forgiving those closest to me. I mean shouldn’t they be more careful to not hurt or offend me since they care about me?

Yeah, that is a selfish as it reads. When I think about all the times I go to my heavenly father and ask for forgiveness for the same things over and over, and yes over again; I have wondered if He gets tired of hearing me and wonders if I really mean it this time.

I presented my feelings once in a class and the group stopped to talk about forgiveness. What is it? What does it include? What should be excluded?

Let’s talk about what Forgiveness is…

Forgiveness is submitting to scripture and honoring God. It is His right to take care of justice. When we don’t forgive, and turn it over to God, we are saying that we don’t trust Him to handle it properly.

Romans 12:19Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.

Forgiveness is a multi step process. We can’t always just say, “I forgive” and be over the hurt. Sometimes we have to forgive as we heal, and that might take time. During painful events, I pray for God to give me the grace needed to forgive as I heal.

Forgiveness is a requirement. However, when we find that we are having to forgive the same person for the same offense over and over, we need to look at that relationship and perhaps set boundaries. If we allow someone to continue to have the power to hurt us, we will become bitter and they are not going to change their behavior.

Forgiveness is based on our heart condition and attitude. We can choose to forgive someone and ask God for the grace to let it go as our heart heals.

Okay for let’s talk about what Forgiveness isn’t…

Forgiveness is not allowing the other person to get away with their actions or not be held accountable.

Forgiveness is not allowing someone to hurt us over and over. If a situation exists like this, the relationship needs to be reviewed and boundaries put into place if you want to continue having a relationship with that person.

Forgiveness is not denying there is a problem or becoming the martyr. It isn’t okay for someone to continue to hurt you. However, sometimes we have to face the fact that there are individuals that are just obnoxious, mean, or unstable. When we are in a relationship like this, we have to face that they will not change their behavior but we can change the way we react or interact with them.

This world is full of evil. There will always be people that will hurt us. We have the choice of holding the pain inside and becoming bitter and angry or forgiving and allowing God to heal our hearts.

Forgiving someone doesn’t mean that you have forgotten the offense. There will be times when you will see or do something that will bring those memories back to your mind. Instead of allowing those memories to bring you pain from the past, try thanking God that you were able through His grace to forgive.

Another area that I struggle with when I am allowing the things in my life to keep me too busy to spend enough time in the Word and in prayer is admitting that I have taken offense where none may have been meant. Sometimes I just get my feelings hurt and honestly have no valid reason to back it up. You know, that “look” someone gave me, or the person that didn’t speak to me.

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During these times when I am feeling put upon or picked on (all in my mind and because I have allowed the world to draw me in to doubt and fear); I will post this scripture all around the house as a reminder.

Ecclesiastes 7:9 says: Do not be quick to take offense, for the taking of offense is the mark of a fool.

I pray that as we grow closer to God, we are slower to anger and to take offense. This only comes through daily time in the Word. Take time to read and study your bible daily. Spend as much time as you can in prayer. Allow both the word of God and His love heal your hurts. And if you are reading this, understand that I am not talking about abuse when I talk about someone hurting you. Abuse is never okay and should never be tolerated. Please seek help if you are in a relationship that you are physically or emotionally in danger.

Embracing the Father’s Forgiveness

 

It was my fault. I deserved it. After all, I’d behaved just like he was behaving. I’d thrown the fits, hurled myself on the floor, yelled and screamed. My mother didn’t know what to do with me. I wore her out and consistently reduced her to tears.

When I was older, I disobeyed and argued with my parents. I knew how to wear them down. But if that didn’t work, I would just lie. Lying was my native language. I wanted what I wanted, and I was willing to do what it took to achieve my goal.

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In short, this son of mine was the answer to my mother’s prayer, “I hope you have one just like you one day.” Looking at him, I saw my own reflection.

Yep, this was pay back.

Mom, have you ever had those thoughts? Have you ever thought your child’s misbehavior is your fault? Ever beat yourself up because your child, “That” child, won’t cooperate or obey? Ever felt like parenting is penance? A penalty? A punishment?

I have. I’ve listened to the enemy’s whispers. I’ve bought the lie. I’ve hung my weary head in despair. I’ve been tempted to give up. I’ve chosen to wallow in the reality of my own sin and rebellion, reducing God to a cruel “Gotcha God” — a God who laughs at my discouragement, a cosmic overlord who takes aim at me for fun, who delights in my suffering.

But that’s not the biblical God. In fact, nothing could be further from the truth.

Allow me to digress for a moment and then connect some dots. Do you remember the parable Jesus told in the New Testament about the servant who was forgiven? In Matthew 18:21-35 in response to Peter’s question, Jesus tells the story of a servant who owed his master a debt. Now this was no small IOU. Apparently it was a huge sum, so much so that the servant fell prostrate begging for extra time to pay the debt. This action touched the heart of the master who forgave the servant’s debt.

Now hang on, I know you probably know this story, but try to listen with new ears. So this servant who has just been forgiven a huge debt leaves his master. As he is going away, he runs into a fellow servant who owes him a few dollars. A few, as in, not many. Although having just been completely released from a large debt, the servant grabs his fellow servant and demands payment.

What?! 

When I read this story, I generally want to just throttle the first servant. After his own debt is forgiven, his friend begs and begs to be given more time, he pleads, but the greedy man throws him in prison. Eye witnesses report back to the master who calls the man out on his ruthless behavior and throws him in prison until his original debt is paid in full.

Hang with me a moment longer. What claims does Jesus make in John 8:12? You remember, Jesus proclaimed, “I am the Light of the world; he who follows Me will not walk in darkness, but will have the Light of life.” And then in I John, the same author admonishes us to “walk in the light as He is in the light.” So, according to these passages, Jesus is the Light who illuminates our life’s path.

Now, what about those dots? Are you seeing a connection?

Every Day

Being a mom is one of the most important jobs on the planet—maybe the most important. Every day we are shaping the future, every day we are defining culture, every day we are making a difference. Obviously these daily opportunities can be used negatively and we see that evidence every time we go to the grocery store. Clearly there are moms who are not taking advantage of their “every day” to nurture the world-changers (aka children) God has sent to them.

Being a mom is also not for wimps. If you are determined to raise your children in the fear and the admonition of the Lord, you know what I mean. If this mothering thing were only about food, clothes, and shelter that would be easy. But it’s not. No, this mothering thing is about holding up before our children a God worthy of their praise and service, worthy of their lives.

Being a mom means being strong and being vulnerable. It means living out loud in front of our kids every day. It means requiring obedience and respect. It means explaining one more time. It means dealing with conflict. It means persevering and not giving up.

Being a mom means we must walk in the Light — the light of His love, the light of His grace, the light of His forgiveness. Walking in His Light means that we extend what we’ve been so abundantly given, what’s been lavished upon us, shaken, pressed down, beyond what we can ask or imagine, to our kids day after day after day. It means praying without ceasing.

And Mom, here’s the truth, which trumps the lie: having “That child” isn’t payback. It isn’t punishment, or a penalty, or even penance. Having “That child” is a privilege.

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Our being able to parent “That child” begins with our acceptance and embrace of our Father’s forgiveness.

A recent reading of Augustine’s Confessions has been a sobering reminder of just how sinful I was in my childhood. Many would chalk up the sins of youth as trivial or thoughtless. Many would say that the wrongs done during a time of immaturity should be overlooked as a right of passage, just foolishness to be endured as we travel through our younger years, having no real consequence. But that isn’t true.

The Bible teaches that foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child. If a father loves his son, he should discipline him. “That child” should be taught diligently. So evidently, childhood’s behaviors can reflect deeper issues of the heart, issues which need to be dealt with through the discipline of a loving parent.

When you get down to the fundamentals, it’s simple truth. Yet all too often we don’t acknowledge it. You cannot give what you do not have. For example, I cannot give you a horse, or the moon, or one million dollars. I might want to give you one of those things, or maybe even all three of them, but I can’t. My wanting to and your desire for me to give them to you cannot override the fact that I don’t have those things to give. No matter how much I want to. No matter how much you want them. Neither of us can change the fact that since I don’t have them, I cannot give them.

What you Have Not Received

The physical example of things is easy enough to understand, but it works the same with intangibles, like love and forgiveness and grace. You see, I cannot give you what I have not received, what I have not embraced. This is not to say that love, forgiveness, and grace are not available to me. No, they are readily available to everyone through the person of Jesus Christ from God the Father by the power of the Holy Spirit. These three, and others like them, are available, pressed down and running over. In fact, many of us would say that we have accepted and received these from the Father, but if that is so, then why aren’t we walking in them?

Mom, if you’ve accepted and received forgiveness from the Father, extend it to your children. If you’ve received love, give it. If you have experienced forgiveness, extended it to your “That child.” Why do we withhold from them what we’ve been so generously given? Why do we resist sharing what we have in abundance? Why are we stingy with the blessings of God?

I’m going to venture a guess as to why we do this. And my hunch is based on my own experience. I know that I was once an unforgiving and angry mom because I was like the servant. I had a debt of sin that I couldn’t repay. I’d been forgiven, but I didn’t really get it. I didn’t get the enormity of my debt, it’s hideousness in contrast to His holiness, and I didn’t get the power of His forgiveness, the completeness of it, His delight in granting it.

I’d been forgiven, but I hadn’t really received that forgiveness, allowed it to wash over me, to contemplate it’s value or it’s power.

So, when one of my kids did something, when “That child” misbehaved or rebelled, well, I got angry and incensed. They didn’t deserve my forgiveness. I considered it my right to be offended, to hold the offense against them. I didn’t get what I’d been given. Look, if you are finding it hard or maybe even impossible to forgive your children (or anyone else), then I’d suggest that it’s because you aren’t realizing the forgiveness you’ve been given. You can’t give it because you don’t have it. You’re not walking in the Light of His life. If you were, it wouldn’t be so difficult.

Look, when you get what you’ve been forgiven, you cannot help but look for opportunities to forgive. When you get the grace, the gift of salvation given which you neither deserve nor earned, then you cannot help but graciously respond to others. When you glimpse the love that chose to die on Calvary to pay your sin debt, the perfect sacrifice for your ugly, small, secret, overt, denied and deliberate sin, then you look for others to love unconditionally, extravagantly, and persistently. When you get what you’ve been given, you are driven to give it to others. You’re not driven by compulsion. You won’t have an I’ve-got-to-do-this obligation. Instead, you will have an inner desire to share out of the overflow of unearned abundance, abounding blessings, and bountiful gifts. Salvation is yours, but now you want to share it with others.

Mom, do you know this kind of forgiveness, this kind of love, this kind of grace? When did you last consider all that you have been forgiven?

When Forgiveness Looks Like Grace

Sometimes the things that need to be forgiven aren’t the huge hurts and mess ups. Often, it’s the little things that happen quite by accident that most need forgiveness.

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I’m pretty sure that the rules of our house concerning rough-housing and mindless clumsiness are similar to many other families. Even with that rule, among six children, it’s bound to be broken. And then, actual things are broken.

One particular day, a favorite figurine from a collection was knocked off of the shelf and broke into several pieces; hidden and pushed back into a cabinet. It was special because it was one of a husband and wife in a sweet embrace. I thought that it depicted the tenderness that we have in our marriage so well.

As much as I adored that figurine, I loved my child more. I love my child enough to not fly off in rage, and in the process destroying her over something that could easily be replaced.

Grace in that same way was extended to me when I was a child. I’ve had my fair share of knocking over that freshly poured glass of iced sweet tea, breaking one of my mom’s favorite trinkets, showing up late when I’d just promised to be on time, and especially deeper grace shown when I told my mom and dad of the results of sexual sin.

All of those things were a result of forgiveness looking like grace. I learned that my heavenly Father has the authority to forgive and forget all of the sins that I was guilty of when I turned to Him for that forgiveness.

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He gently turns my face to a few of His words, the grace that poured over me when I read in John 8 of the woman caught in the act of adultery stood before Jesus and her accusers. After the call for her death and Jesus telling her accusers to throw the first stone if they, themselves, were without sin, Jesus asks the woman, “Where are those accusers of yours? Has no one condemned you?” …”Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more.”

God solidified my knowledge of when forgiveness looks like grace in 1 John 1:9,

“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgives us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

God doesn’t hold a grudge against us! We’re His children and He’d rather us know Him as a grace giver. Are there consequences that come from sin? Many times, absolutely! But there’s still the grace given to come through them.

When there is an opportunity to extend grace, I hope to take it, because so much of what I’ve received forgiveness for was shown through grace.

Praying Through Forgiveness

Remember as a child when your mom told you to say you were sorry to your brother for that mean way you treated him? And you half-heartedly responded, “Sorry.” And your brother may have muttered back, “It’s OK.” And you were both expected to go forgive and go on your merry ways.

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Neither party involved really was feeling sorry or much like forgiving.

And that is because we are usually so self-focused in the moment as children (and as adults) that we only care about how we feel at the time, not really about the other person.

In that moment we feel justified for our behavior. And the one we hurt doesn’t feel very much like forgiving.

What would happen though, if we took our eyes off ourselves and looked after another’s interests?

Whether we are the offender or the one offended, we need to pray through forgiveness.

We can pray for the Holy Spirit to give us the strength not only to apologize but to really mean it. Because in our flesh, “I’m sorry” are just words. And usually, they are said in an effort to just “do right” But are we truly repentant?

And forgiving takes just as much prayer. We may respond with, “It’s ok.” But are we still holding a grudge in our hearts? Do we still remember it the next time the offender hurts us? Are we keeping a record of wrongs and letting bitter roots grow?

Again, praying and asking the Holy Spirit to help us forgive in His strength, and not our own is necessary. Because in our flesh we want to keep a record and make that person pay for what they did to us. We want justice.

But God is just. He knows both the offender and the one offended inside and out. He will deliver justice, and our job is to do as the Bible instructs.

“…and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.” Matthew 6:12

“Therefore if you are presenting your offering at the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your offering there before the altar and go; first be reconciled to your brother, and then come and present your offering. Matthew 5:23-24

As we seek to live like Christ, we can approach forgiveness from both sides, but always as Christ. We must remember the One who ultimately gave His life for us. How can we look inward when He set the example of true forgiveness? And how can we not be filled with sorrow when we offend another?

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Take our eyes off ourselves and look unto Him, and ultimately we will understand forgiveness.

Dear Heavenly Father, Please help us to live like Jesus. Help us to give forgiveness and to ask for it from those we have hurt. Give us the humility to set aside our pride and give us the supernatural desire to forgive as well as to repent.

In Your Name, we pray. Amen.

When We Learn to Forgive

Have you ever been truly hurt by what someone has said or done to you? So much that you may have thought, “I will never forgive them or trust them again”? I know for most of us it is safe to say you have experienced this a time or two in your life.

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Dealing with the pain and anger that’s generated by not forgiving someone can truly eat away at you. Our natural reaction as humans is to seek revenge, becoming angry, bitter, hold resentment, and pull away from someone who has wronged us. 

To allow our emotions to overtake us, especially by not forgiving someone who has hurt us, is not healthy. Holding on to that anger, it eats at us, it develops mistrust and negative thoughts in our minds. As a Christian, we have to learn to have a forgiving heart. It doesn’t mean it will be easy, but just like in Ephesians 4:32,

“And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you.”

God forgives us when we sin, or hurt someone else. So why do we feel we can’t forgive others the same way He forgives us? 

Matthew 6:14-15 says, 

“For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive youBut if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”

Jesus reminds us that it is so important to forgive, and not to hold resentment in and allow that negativity to hinder our lives. A lot of times we might find we are angry towards someone, and when we see them our heart begins to race, we get sweaty and want to confront them. But, the other person we are angry at seems free and happy. This is because it is us who hasn’t forgiven and the other person probably doesn’t even remember or know they hurt us.

Holding that anger and having an unforgiving heart hurts us not the other person. 

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When we learn to forgive and give it to God, an amazing thing will take place. That hurt, anger, resentment, bitterness that has been eating at is, is released. We are set free from the pain and are free. No matter if the person you are angry at never says sorry, learn to forgive and be free from the hurt. It can take time, forgiving, but you will be amazed at the freedom you feel. By forgiving you don’t allow them to continue to hurt you, you simply create healthy boundaries to protect yourself going forward if it is a person you have to continue to be around for work, family, etc. 

Prayer: 

Father God, I come to you now and ask that you help open up my heart to see those who I need to forgive. If I have areas in my life where I am hindering unforgiveness may it be brought to light, so I can be free from the pain and hurt I have been carrying around? I thank you that you forgive so freely, and allow me to be set free when I forgive others. I thank you for your unconditional love, even when I struggle and find I am not perfect. Lord, I pray that as I carry on throughout the day, I can build strong healthy relationships with my family and friends. If someone does offend or hurt me, I can learn to forgive right away, and now allow it to affect me. 

In Awe,

 

Forgiveness can be hard

Forgiveness can be hard. Very hard. When another person wrongs us, it can be difficult to choose to forgive that person. After all, what if the person didn’t apologize? What if the person doesn’t deserve our forgiveness? What if the person hurt us on purpose or doesn’t even care if he or she hurt us?

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Yes, forgiveness is one of those topics that is hard to discuss. After all, we not only find it hard to forgive others who have hurt us, but we often find it hard to forgive ourselves! We try to tell ourselves that we’re too humble to forgive ourselves. After all, doesn’t it show how humble we are if we refuse to forgive ourselves and maybe even continue to beat ourselves up over the sins we’ve committed?

But if you think about it, refusing to forgive yourself is actually the opposite of humility! If God chooses to forgive us, who are we to refuse to forgive ourselves? Are my standards higher than God’s standards? Am I holier than Him? Of course not! So what makes me think it’s wrong to forgive myself for something that God says has been erased from my past?

And what about forgiving others who have hurt us? If we know we must forgive ourselves for wrongs we’ve done, shouldn’t we also forgive others who’ve hurt us? The short answer is yes! We should. It’s hard to live with bitterness and hate in our hearts. It’s hard to love ourselves (or anyone else for that matter) if we have unforgiveness in our hearts!

You might ask the question, though, about forgiving another person who has done something dangerous or committed a wrong against you that can’t simply be forgotten. That does complicate matters, but I’ve realized that forgiveness doesn’t mean you have to allow a person to “get away with” doing wrong. We must still hold others accountable for wrongs they’ve done, and we must not allow them to continue doing wrong against us. In other words, we shouldn’t enable others to sin against us. For example, if your spouse is unfaithful or if someone is stealing from you, you must hold that person accountable for his (or her) actions.

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Forgiveness comes when you choose to no longer feel hate or bitterness toward that person. Forgiveness does NOT mean putting yourself or your family at risk, though, or allowing another person to wrong you in the name of forgiveness.

I’m thankful that God has forgiven me for my sins. I’m thankful that He has saved me and that He loves me even if I’m not perfect. (Because I’m certainly not!) And I’m thankful that I know it’s ok to forgive others and myself. Life is much more pleasant and love is so much easier to give when I know that I’m forgiven and when I know how to forgive.

They knew exactly what they were doing! 

Wrestling with forgiveness on many occasions, I’ve cried out to the Lord,

“They knew exactly what they were doing.”

As the Holy Spirit nudged me to forgive, I held on to that phrase like a stubborn child clenches his jaws around a piece of candy he’s not supposed to have.

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There in all his patience and goodness, the Holy Spirit tried to walk me through what it means to forgive like Jesus.

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As Jesus hung on the cross, taking his last breaths, he asked his Heavenly Father a profound request:

“Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”
Luke 23:34

 

But didn’t they know!?!

Didn’t they purposefully go after Jesus.

They paid someone off to locate him.

They hunted him down.

Arrested him.

Paid people to lie about what he said and what they had witnessed.

They planned his murder and convinced Pilate to crucify him.

When they were given one last out, they stirred up the crowd.

“Crucify Him! Crucify Him!”

They had the Roman soldiers drive nails into his hands and feet.

They spat on him.

They mocked him.

Don’t tell me, Lord, they didn’t know what they were doing!

But then the Lord pulled back the shades of anger from my eyes, and there lay all our spiritual hearts.

Finally, I saw what I was unwilling to see before.  All the times I’ve sinned. All the times I’ve justified what I have done.  All the times I sinned believing I was doing right. All the times I hung my head after I’d sinned.

The truth is, we have all crucified Christ with our sins.  When Jesus asked his Father to forgive them, he also asked his Father to forgive us.

We have with misguided hearts sinned against a sinless savior. In sinning, we set Him up on the cross. We spat at his grace and mercy. We rejected him as our Messiah just as those who plotted against Him.

Missing the Spiritual Aspect

The truth is neither those who plotted to crucify Jesus nor we, really understood what we were doing.  Yes, we might have physically and mentally understood a part of it, but we totally missed the spiritual aspect.

The truth that Jesus spoke on the cross resonates in my heart.  It is filled with such patient grace for us.  It calls us to understand why he could forgive us and how he could say we don’t understand what we are doing.

If they truly understood that Jesus was God in the flesh, they would not have crucified Him.

If we truly understand that we slap Jesus in the face with the grace he has extended to us when we sin, we would not do it.

Forgiving Like Jesus

It’s too easy to look at another and believe that they knew exactly what they were doing but do we say the same about our actions?

Now, when I’m confronted with a pain that is too heavy to bear because of a wrong someone has committed against me and my forgiveness starts to be held back, I can’t help but hear Christ’s words echo in my heart.

“Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”

Christ’s words were true then as he hung on the cross and they are true every time someone sins against Him now.  These words ring true when someone commits wrongs against us too.

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Prayer Over Our Hearts

Oh, Lord!  Your holiness is astounding.  It’s so difficult to understand how much you love us, even when we sin against you.  Yet, you are faithful and loving to all you have created.  You call us back to you. You forgive us as we are hurting you with our sin.

Let us allow the Holy Spirit to work in our lives so that your grace and mercy will allow us to forgive before others ask.  Allow us to exercise this muscle of forgiveness so that we too can begin to forgive even as we are attacked. Let us see others with your eyes. Let us not hold grudges or records of wrongs but truly let your love shine through us so you can be glorified.

Even as we are being attacked, Lord, let us proclaim your love for those who are attacking us.  May our eyes be opened to the spiritual battle around us and use your truth and forgiveness to win the battles set before us.

In the One who daily teaches us how to forgive and receive forgiveness – Amen!